rawwrrrrr!!!!

scracth me? think again. (:

Sunday, September 26, 2010

8 years and die

sudah lame tawu sejak aku tak dapat ape-ape.  aku rase, last bile aku masih bersekolah rendah.  waktu itu keadaan mudah saje,  tak macam nie.  sejak hari itu, aku rase, semue atas diri sendiri.  aku dapatkan ape aku nak, atas diri aku.  sekarang, bile umur sudah meningkat, aku kene usehekan dengan kudrat sendiri.  dah lah yatim, aku pokaii pulak?  haihh, ape lah nasib aku.  tak pe lah, walaupun bende nie sangat-sangat mengganggu aku, sangat membebankan, tapi aku pasrah lah.  walaupun berat susut tak makan, badan sakit sane sini, tapi tak ape.  hidup aku sekarang, alhamdulillah, kerajaan masih nak tolong aku.  nanti bile aku besar, aku nak keje bagus-bagus, bia nanti aku tak payah hidup melarat macam nie nak harapkan ikhsan dan simpati orang lagi.  bialah ape jadi, selagi aku mampu, aku berdiri.

its all up to me

things are worsen.
i'm all alone by myself, i got nobody to  talk to.
its all up to me, and just me.

hey, guess what,  i'm 19 now!
wooohoooo!
so does that mean i've to leave on my own?
HAHAHHAKH!
not to say, but i couldn't even afford to handle my emotions.
so how can i leave on my own?
people around are blindly to let me leave on by myself.
shdhhajfkdjiofkdfien!
i'm trying hard to get that one thing for sure.
i'll strive.
its ok if  one day i'll die because of starving to save up money.
you just don't care don't you?